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Thursday, September 18, 2008

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 11:21:03 GMT

i think i found 'the perfect doctor'.

finally went for a check-up at Damansara Specialist (Yeay they have a new Onco!)
we switched to DSH from SJMC because i'm sick of being asked 'when i want to start on my chemo'
i just wanted a normal check up, to know my status.

so, i was consulted by Dr Lam.
Looks young, but i like him.
You know, the service and treatments Damansara Specialists Hospital provides are the BEST compared to other private hospital that ive been to so far.
i love their hospitality and the way they make us the patients, and the family feel so comfortable.
ok.back to Dr Lam.
i was telling him about my sickness and stuff..
and he is suspecting that i'm having a 'pulmonary embolism'.
something like that lah.
it's caused by my blood clot the other day....
now it's not only cancer that i'm dealing with, i'm dealing with my blood and my heart and my spine and my hormones and my emotions.
sooo.
i have to be admitted again.yek.

MY DAD WANTED ME TO SEE A PSYCHIATRIST.
i was like ' FOR WHAAAAAT??!' he went ' so you can talk to him/her about your prooblems'
me: but i have friends for that!
dad: ok, just an idea. just thought that we're not good enough for you.
NO. you guys are way too good for me! <3

Dr Lam still persuaded me to do chemo.
and he promised me the drugs that he's gonna give me are gentle.
and the side effects will be mild, compared to the Tarceva, or Gefinitib which my previous Onco wanted to put me on.

i'm all set for chemo actually.
sakit pun sakit la, i want to be healthy again!
kalau tak buat pun sakit, so no difference right?

'i'm not a delicate little flower'
i'm a SUPERWOMAN

and the 'secret' reveals itself ...

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 13:32:06 GMT

HOLY GOD
YA ALLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no words can describe how shocked i am right now.

okay..
chill sara.

i was reading my last year's blog entries...
ok la... read read read..
then i finally set my eyes reading the 22nd july 07 post,
about this guy who i thought was 'scary' and i thought he was another homeless person.

u can read more here :

http://www.xanga.com/maisara?nextdate=7%2f26%2f2007+0%3a37%3a23.640&direction=n

BACK THEN,
22 July 2007.
- i didn't know what 'The Secret' is. guess i was being a world-class nerd and didnt have time to do recreational reading and watch self-help DVDs.
- 'that' guy gave me a big shock when he suddenly pops up from my back, while i was busy shooting a 'garbage bin'.
-never did it cross my mind that the guy was actually serious and all this while , i just thought he was just kidding around , just to make me laugh and talk to him while waiting for the tram that only came like 15 mins later.
-eve and i thought the lady next to him was weird , dressed like a christmas tree, which convinced us that they were a pair of weirdos.

and NOW
17 JULY 2008
- i know what 'THE SECRET' is. ive watched it,ive read it, ive applied it, ive experienced it.
-randomly i chose to read the date 22 JULY 2007 , and found that guy and what he said about 'the secret'.
-i was curious, then i tried googling him again. AND successed! i found him! without his santa claus beard!!!! HIS NAME IS NEALE DONALD WALSCH!!!! he was the author of the famous 'Conversations with God' , the bestselling novels back then!

MAGIC.google is magic.kisses for google!

MY EYEBALLS WERE POPPING OUT.

HELLO. ARE U TELLING ME I SPOKE TO THE AUTHOR OF THE SECRET?!?!
HELLOOOOOO???
HOMIGOD.
bangga gila nak mampos!
God loves me, he chose me. :)

the secret....is in your hands, and google ;)

can i help you find your way?

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 08:11:36 GMT

i saw the photos...
you're losing it.
you're definitely losing it.

culture shock ke?
yela kot.
i know tu hal u sendiri, kubur masing masing kan.
dosa u bukan i yang tanggung.

tapi bila best friend sendiri pergi tegur,
to at least open your eyes and make you walk straight instead of running in circles,
kau pergi marah pulak dia.
you snapped at him.

tolong la.
agak-agak la please.
bangganya muka kau dengan pegang beer murah?
macamane la mak bapak kau rase bila tengok gambar tu eh?

tu baru duduk kat KL, belum duduk country lain.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 16:00:39 GMT

hahaha.
mr A and mr B
both in the finals.

a noob who is not so bad afterall :)

;)

missing.

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 14:06:31 GMT

first myra..then faris..then miloman..then probably it's rizal...who's next?

who else is leaving? :(

myra saya sangat miss awak.
i miss the comfort and strength that you've been giving me
i wish i could do something to ease out your homesickness..
but i know in a day or two you'll get over it because you're a tough chick!

and i dreamt of alia.
i woke up crying because i miss her so much.
i miss the three of us.

bubbles & buttercup ..
come home to blossom please?

Friday, September 12, 2008

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 12:28:27 GMT

ouch.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 14:30:31 GMT

i have been given too many choices throughout this life..
i've decided on good ones .. and bad ones too..
20 years of practising and learning what's right and wrong should at least help me with the stuff im dealing with now...

sometimes it's better to be at the end of the road.

yippeeyeayy!

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 05:38:23 GMT

i really don't want to jinx this up......
but i can't help myself from getting overly excited when i heard the news.....

LANCE ARMSTRONG IS BACK IN CYCLING WORLD.
well, he was never actually gone, because he's such a legend.
LEGEND.

if the news is true (hopefully it is),
he'll make a comeback in next year's Tour de France,
which my dad promised to bring me to,
and can you imagine how thrilled i am to watch my own superhero ride in front of my eyes?!

please ride again , Lance.

homigod.
lance armstrong,TOM BOONEN,levi lepheimer,alberto contador...
these four who are definitely joining next year's TDF are so going to make me fly.
(hopefully no more doping scandals involving them!)

cantwaitcantwaitcantwait.
2009 quick come.

Monday, September 08, 2008

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 15:22:39 GMT

aduuuhhh.
BEGOK.
apa harus ku bilang sama diaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
aduh pusing kepala aku!
capek deh mau lari lari dari soalannya!

Monday, September 08, 2008

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 05:48:55 GMT

helllllllllloooooooooo
nak krispy kreme please!
why malaysia tak ada krispy kreme?
sobsob.
nak balik melbourneeeeeeee!

anywayyy..
hi LARS!i havent got the chance to talk to u lately..
but i know that uve been reading my blog..
guess what! i've got the socks :):):)
hihs! it's awesome!